here i am again

...in the world of blogs. After a long break from my late highschool/first year of college melodrama live journal, and a disinterest in myspace blogs, I'm back in this electronic pseudo diary world....a lot happier, and maybe slightly less boring.

Top 5 reason for getting a blog:

1) i miss writing--going to art school for dance has wiped out my time and energy for creative writing, and most of the writing classes offered at school conflict my schedule.
2) i express myself much better in writing than speaking
3) i enjoy reading other people's blogs
4) i like when other people read my writing. actual diary's feel too personal sometimes. plus blogs help with my whole--"people should open up and make themselves vulnerable to the world." if people can't handle my emotions, thoughts, quirks, brutal honesty etc, (all in all)fuck 'em, ya know? hiding is worthless 99 percent of the time (at least for me)
5) my mind races all the time and need a place to vent that isn't directed at a single person. also, it calms my head to write.

I signed up for a class today called "the word as sound and image", and the teacher asked me if i thought i was "pretty technologically savvy", and I stuttered and made awkward noises, and he said "do you know what a blog is?". I said "yes" obviously, and he let me in his class. i found it slightly funny. not haha funny. some other kind of funny.

I was upset a few days ago, and thought this: "I can't be a dancer because I notice couples with matching umbrellas". Still don't really know why this occurred in my brain, and how dance and umbrellas correlate, but I do know the story of the umbrellas:

I was driving down a street in Santa Fe, when I noticed a pedestrian couple with matching umbrellas and i thought "gee, i really hope i'm not the type of girl that would get into a relationship that involved owning matching umbrellas" Then I wondered. "Did she buy one for herself and one for him because it was cute? Was it a christmas present from her grandparents? Were they on sale? Did they come in a two pack?" I guess I feel like most drivers probably wouldn't have thought about it twice, and I thought about it a lot for being something pretty trivial to my existence. I think to much to a dancer is probably why dance and umbrellas came together, but i'm still going to try to harness it and dance. So yeah. There's that.

On the whole umbrella gig, I was at a party over break and they had those little tiny parasols for cocktails, and i noticed that everybody calls them "umbrellas" which are for the rain and parasols are for the sun (direct translation actually). Who drinks cold, fruity cocktails on rainy days? God, people. Get it together. Just Joking. The problem with blogs is that my tone of voice doesn't come through. I can't figure out a good ending for this blog, but it's going to end anyway.